Update on Kristina's health

Kristina's been dealing with some pretty substantial health issues for the last week or ten days, and now that we finally have a solid diagnosis, we're due an update for the Big Wide World.

For the big-word geeks: idiopathic intracranial hypertension. Another older terminology is pseudotumor cerebri. Basically what this boils down to is that Kristina has a build-up of cerebrospinal fluid in her head, and that mimics the behavior of a tumor. This diagnosis makes sense of all the seemingly disparate and steadily worsening symptoms she's had over the last several days.

The nerves in the back of Kristina's eyes were badly swollen for several days, and they are now damaged. About her sight, she says it's like looking through a really thick piece of white tissue paper. So, severely impaired. We have a few follow-up appointments scheduled next week, but what we've heard from the doctor so far is that we'll just have to wait and see if, when and to what extent her vision will return.

She's had some complications from yesterday's spinal tap (which she turned all the way to 11, I'll have you know), so she's been ordered to lie flat as much as possible for at least through the weekend, and possibly for as long as a week. The doctor also ordered heavy caffeine consumption: a cup of coffee per hour for five or six hours a day until these symptoms fade. Buzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz. ;)

Lots of folks are asking if and how they can help. Short answer: I don't know. Kristina's mom has flown in from Charlotte... THANKS, JEANNE!!! Kristina's going to get bored, so visits from sweet friends are always welcome. I think we'll be able to keep on top of housework, food, etc., at least while Jeanne's here. I think she's planning to be here for as long as we need her, though, so...there you go. If you want to do something for us, we're probably not going to turn you down, but we're also probably all too frazzled to tell you what we need. Just ping us if you have some ideas. Email, text, call, Facebook, Twitter, IRL...you get the idea.

We welcome your prayers, with this one request: There's nothing wrong with hoping and praying that God will show His bigness by fully healing Kristina's vision. We want that, too. But more than that, we want Him to show His power by giving us joy in His Lordship, in His constant goodness, regardless of circumstance.

Sometimes He doesn't heal. And we want to live like we believe that's good.

"I do believe, but help me overcome my unbelief!"

An Aylin funny:

Aylin came home from school recently having learned "We will rock you".

Just now she climbs up on my lap where I'm sitting in the rocking chair and says to me quite seriously: "I'm gonna rock you, mamacita". I responded "You are?". Her reply "yes, sometimes ya got mud on your face..."

It took me a moment to connect the two. But I got there. ;-)

taking stock of the situation

Today I came across this little nugget from the life of King David, man after God's own heart:

Satan rose up against Israel and caused David to take a census of the people of Israel. 2 So David said to Joab and the commanders of the army, “Take a census of all the people of Israel—from Beersheba in the south to Dan in the north—and bring me a report so I may know how many there are.”

3 But Joab replied, “May the Lord increase the number of his people a hundred times over! But why, my lord the king, do you want to do this? Are they not all your servants? Why must you cause Israel to sin?”

4 But the king insisted that they take the census, so Joab traveled throughout all Israel to count the people. Then he returned to Jerusalem 5 and reported the number of people to David. There were 1,100,000 warriors in all Israel who could handle a sword, and 470,000 in Judah. 6 But Joab did not include the tribes of Levi and Benjamin in the census because he was so distressed at what the king had made him do.

7 God was very displeased with the census, and he punished Israel for it. 8 Then David said to God, “I have sinned greatly by taking this census. Please forgive my guilt for doing this foolish thing.”

1 Chronicles 21.1-8; see also 2 Samuel 24.1-10

Lots of people struggle with how to interpret these parallel passages, apparently, so I don't feel too badly that I don't have crystal clarity on what it means for me right now. But I've been home today, so I've had plenty of time to let the story ping around inside my heart and mind. Maybe it's a Captain Obvious kind of statement, but this story feels significant to the season I'm in.

I just don't know why. Yet.

Maybe there's something here about the enormous danger in taking our security and significance from — placing our faith in — something other than God. Maybe David, in his position of peace, security and comfort, lost that sense of the immediate presence of a rescuing, sheltering Father God. Maybe he just got bored. Maybe it was all of the above and then some.

I don't know. Yet.

The Orphans of Chernobyl

Severely physically and mentally handicapped, 5-year-old Igor was given up by his parents and now lives at a children’s mental asylum, which cares for 150 abandoned and orphaned children with disabilities. It is one of several such facilities in rural southern Belarus receiving support from Chernobyl Children International, an aid organization established by Adi Roche in 1991 in the aftermath of the world’s worst nuclear disaster. Vesnova, Belarus, 2005 (Gerd Ludwig/INSTITUTE)#

In an orphanage in Belarus, a mentally disabled boy enjoys the scent of a tulip. Children born in the fallout region are said to have a higher rate of birth defects and retardation, a belief supported by many—but not all—in the scientific community. International aid organizations established in the aftermath of the disaster continue to provide much needed financial support to homes and orphanages housing children affected by the fallout. Vesnova, Belarus, 2005 (Gerd Ludwig/INSTITUTE)#

Aylin funnies and other enjoyable things

Aylin is sitting in her beanbag watching Dora one weekend mid-day
Me: Aylin, would you like some lunch?
Aylin: Sure! I want it right here.
Me: I'm sure you would! ...

Aylin has started talking like a thirteen year old. "So, and, ah... I did not kick. Or hit..." I am convinced that sometimes, if she doesn't talk constantly she will simply explode.

When asked how old she will be at her next birthday "Thirty!" apparently we're multiplying it by 10.

Aylin gets a fruit snack in the morning on the way to school, usually yogurt covered raisins, regular raisins, or cranberries. I've started telling her if she doesn't finish them before she gets to her classroom then she must share with her friends. Now all the kids await her arrival and I was concerned we would have to stop altogether. But she handles the mob well. She covers the snack with both hands and requires the kids to line up, and ask nicely. Theres also lots of "just a moment", "wait patiently" throughout the process. Its pretty cute.

"Shut Up" is a bad word in our house. One that will get you a time out. So any time she hears it, particularly on the TV, the following occurs.
Aylin: "that man said shut up. I did not say shut up. We don't say shut up."
Mom/Dad: "ok, but don't say it any more".

While visiting Papa Joe, G'ma Linda, and Great G'ma Bernie. G'ma Bernie was going to be leaving so we told Aylin to tell her bye-bye and I love you. She gave her hugs, and told her bye. But apparently never said I love you. Several minutes after Bernie had left Aylin exclaims "Where's Grama Bernie? I've got to say I love you!" then was momentarily concerned/distraught that Bernie had left.

The little goof also enjoys shakin' her groove thang. I brought her to the office with me the Friday before Christmas because daycare was closed and I was only supposed to be in the office a few hours. I think she spent more time dancing for my co-worker and chatting it up with her than she did with me. But they enjoyed each other, and my co-worker has 3 young ones of her own. So it worked out well.

Halloween kitty cheese

Much fun was had by some. Any guesses as to who the Scrooge was? ;-)

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I can't smile, I'm busy...

Like mother, like daughter? I had forgotten my phone at work today, so after dinner Aylin tagged along to retrieve it. She climbed right up into my chair. When I asked for a smile I got "no, I'm busy..." Then she climbed down to explore the rest of the office and decided jumping on the beds in the showroom was way more fun. :-D